我该怎么办？！

昨晚 我发了一个很大的神经
我哭我闹我烦我难过
不会处理我的情绪
他忙 我也忙
我想他 他也想我
可是我和他 都没能见面
而他就只会告诉我 想清楚吧
他：“以后我会更忙 你要想好好”
“现在还不算最忙 所以等我真的最忙时
可能 连给电话你都是问题”

我不知道该怎么办
想他 可却什么都不能做
自己难过 他也难过
我又不会处理现在的心情
昨天就这样的发了脾气

那个EQ很好的我 消失了
遇到这个他 我平静的心 也消失了
我该如何是好？
如何去维持这段关系
我要如何去控制我的情绪
谁来帮帮我 给我意见

我喜欢这段感情
舍不得放开
我不要找别人来代替你
不是每个人都可以成为你
我也没说一定会嫁给你
所以请不要想太多

笨shane

now is 3.14am midnite
i havent sleep and i duno why
maybe i was struggle about my best fren
i'm not in her list anyway which without reason
again and again it happened
i so frustuated about this action

sometime i wonder..
am i difficult to mix around?
bcoz recently i found i less contact with my fren
and i duno what to chat with them
we have different topic
maybe we have different life standard
most of them are from rich background
or bcoz we having different life
i'm studying but you doing other than me

background and life
would these two reasons caused us separate apart even we are so close?

i really tired of these thingz
so sorry that i just leave it and concentrate for my final

the only happy thing i have is my dear ul
the one temporary never make me upset too much
and always stay with me
that nite i sent him a msg
the content is "nothing gonna change my love for you"
do you think he would understand?
i hope so
at least i felt his heart when i see him
sweet and warm

舞者的魅力与自信

在台上 舞者发光发热
这是天生拥有的吗？
当音乐开始响起 舞者的每一个动作 每一个旋转
带动着所有人的心情 无一不被吸引

舞者在舞台上 化身成为不同的身份
舞台下 他们就像我们 没有分别
或许 他们本身还会带着少许的魅力与气质
可是 平凡如我们 是不会停留多一秒

舞者的自信和常人的自信有所不同
他们的自信不会刺伤身边的人
常人的自信往往都伤害了身边最亲爱的那个人
他们的美丽与自信带来的是快乐
常人的自信带来了不快与斗争

人生是常人的舞台
它比任何一位舞者都拥有更多的观众
让我们把常人的魅力与自信
发挥得像个舞者
带来快乐与美好

第一“等”女王

什么时候 我变得那么的有耐性？

等你的电话 等你的信息
等你得空时来见我
等你忙完
等你把所有人都安置完
等你等到 安慰我自己说 你已经把最多的时间给我
等你得一通电话 让我好好地休息
等你发泄心里的一切 再把自己的难过浇灭
等你打开心里的结
等你好好的听我想说的话
等你把我的事放在心上
等你记得我的生活琐事
等到哪天我的耐性都消磨到底
等到哪天你发现心里的感觉 希望后悔不会来

你的一个电话 让这个‘等’在心里消失不见
希望这个‘等’不会是一个难过和绝望

1st day of ballet class

my first day of ballet class
i need alot more brave to join the ballet class
today i did it!!!
so happy..and so tough
i wonder how difficult the student to be trained
focus!!!is the most importance in the class

i dance without a satin shoes
so scare i will hurt my feet
but i have also find out my feet and body
NEED More Exercise....
cant balance!cant follow the step!
cant remember the movement!
and i cant differentiate the side...
which side come 1st?which step come after!!

my brain still cant get function well
now i know why most of our ballet student are good in study
bcz when u dance, ur both brain is function!!!
so who think they do not have a good brain??
GO DANCE!!1

such a life!

i was busy between study assignment work..
i dont even have my own life
life that i can enjoy my dinner
life that i can have 9 hours sleep
life that i can go back to hometown
life that i can concentrate on one responsibility
hmm...speechless with this life

what can i do for this?
i work for WHAT
money?experience?discipline?
i study for WHAT
knowledge?certificate?future?
i emo for WHAT...
this is my life

applying for BIG4
can i enter one of these four companies?
am i fulfill their requirement?
God...please help me..i pray for it..
thankz god

Si3nzzzzz!!

yes..i'm working now..

at the mean time, i was wonder how i'm going to pass this 8th day of chinese new year

i came back kl so early just bcz i need to work

luckily my dear accompany me yesterday night

although he left at midnight bcz of his family non stop calling

since when guy become cinderella?

i miss him so much..and tonight i'm gonna be alone

he has to celeb at home with his so called ''big'' family...

huhu...miss him so much.. pity me

yesterday he told me his following schedule affter CNY

HE MAY LEAVES ME ALONE FOR FEW MONTHS

he going work at sabah or sarawak for his network purpose

yea..he going to have his own business and assets

but he lost his time with me...

i agreed he should work hard for his career

although he will buy me luxury things to clear my blaming

but the most luxury thing i want from him is time

hope he can spend some time with me

next year, i'm going to graduate

time to spend with each other will getting less and less

hmm...no choice to accept the destiny

hope my temperature wont go up and down like the share market

dear..i do appreciate you spend your time with me yesterday

i can feel your unwillingness when you leaving

want to say 'i love you' but this is too much than my feeling

so i would like to say between love and like..hehe

so mean..