一个星期了！

电脑被偷一个星期了
现在的我 对我的功课学业 不知所措
心情就像海浪一样 一波未停一波又起
没有之前的平静 没有海浪轻轻拍在沙滩边的情绪
只有2012 的海啸 覆盖了我所有的思绪和理智
我太依赖了 不该依赖他
必须好好的安排处理 否则我将会把这学期的功课给搞砸
那我该踏出那一步呢？哪一个功课必须先完成？
Law?Ma? Fa?Cf?Audit?Tax?
照着这个顺序吗？
好多好多东西等着我
他一直的进步 我也不能停下脚步
让我们一起进步吧！我亲爱的。。

Today!! Make Me.....ARh~~

my laptop been stolen
my house been broke by thief
i hate this thief..
i cursing him all the time..
why he wana b a thief ?
i hate theif
arh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

better watch out!!
you will die while i catch you!!!

totally down!!

sorethroat make me absent and missed the group discussion
UL make me cant get to buy my mp3 today
he make me felt disppointed today
why he cant do easy thing for me
whatever i request jz a very little and easy request
he always 4get it
today he brought me to ole-ole bali
spend about 100bucks
we chit chat and he knows i having a bad bad mood when having dinner
he never remember my stuff
i jz wan to buy my mp3
i jz wan you bring me to night market for some favourite food
i jz wan you watch the movie i like
i jz wan you remember to bring me for food when i was hungry
i jz hope we can have a holiday together in some special place
why you never understand all this
are you unable to do simple n easy thing
i duno whether you understand i really sad and down when you asked me tat question
although you know that i wasnt happy with your behavior
i never asked anything which you dont like
because i know you wont try to do it for me
i'm also lazy and force you to do so
if we dont spend time together after you work
i really dont know who r you to me
mayb someday i realize that i dont really need you with me
i will let you go
if you wana leave you can neither let me know
i will not stop you

do you really like me
do you really wan to spend your time with me
sometime i know that you really care about me
but what i want is jz some simple thing
mayb is too hard for you to do simple n easy thing
su*ks man
i duno what to say on you anymore
i really hope we can have a good time with each other
but i really cant get your mind and neither you to me
i dont need a brand thing
i jz need your heart
dun pretend you dont care
i wan the feeling during your birthday
i have my limit and dont get over it
i will never give the 2nd chance
i care you but you will never know since you never took my words in serious

心情低落 时间在走动

好难过 功课一直达不到我要的水平
啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊
好闷 想找个人聊聊
可惜我想找的人 不接我电话
到底他在干嘛？
好像抱怨 可是不知道该怎么抱怨
我应该放多点时间在我的课业上
我要的水平 请快快回来
救命啊~！！
有谁可以帮到我?
压力 不知哪来的压力
好恨~~

ApoloGize to my dear UL

So so sorry to my dear
i shouldnt put my stress on you
caring from ppl around me
also stress to me

i cant take all the question and comment from them
somemore i so confuse with everything
stress make me feel to stop everything and run away from you

i know this is a bad emo decision towards us
i knw is not fair for us
but after chat with my life partner,munmun
i feeling better ady
so sorry to my dear..so so sorry
i shouldnt 4get ur care and ur heart
i shouldnt put my stress towards you
so so sorry~~

such a stranger!

You are stranger for me
without meet each other for a week
i feel so strange to you
what happen with me?
is this a big problem?
i try to ask you dont leave
is't i wan to find the feeling back?
i cant control the strange happened and expanding
it full of my heart
telling you about this
but you do not concern about this issue
will it affect us?
i will never know
will i quit n run away?
i will never know
mayb this is me and my personality
so much unstable and uncomfortable about this
care me plzz
this is what i wan
i will never stay here for you
unless you care about me

想写

想写的欲望

不知道想写的原因

最近 刚刚完成了五天的工作

身理和心理 因为工作和感情 我觉得好累

不喜欢猜测 不喜欢含糊不清

可是事情往往不如想象的容易

他画在我身上的图案 我明白了

可是还是有那么一点点地质疑

质疑他对我的感情到底是什么

也质疑我自己对感情的定义

徘徊在纠缠不清的感情世界

不清楚自己的感觉

我想呆在自己的圈圈理？

还是 踏出第一步

勇敢地接受我和他的感情?

一切要到那个时候

决定才会知晓

Juz LeT It ｂ