Monday, August 31, 2009

迷迷糊糊

失去方向
我差点就失去理智
感情 让我迷迷糊糊的
为什么 我竟然接受一个不符合我要求的男人
我们不是情侣 我们也不只是朋友
我们到底是什么?
8个小时 紧握着对方的手
相偎相依 互相鼓励 互相拥抱
看着他的双眼 相信他不会辜负我
我以为我可以不在乎
七夕当天 想抱着他 说声情人节快乐
难过烦恼 想对他说 晴天会来临

从来没想过他会紧紧地握着我的手
可以清楚地感觉到他的在乎
他答应 雨过天晴后 会和我一起去放假
我想抱着他 与他 渡过满满的假期
现在的我 无法帮他什么 只有给他拥抱和温暖

Sunday, August 23, 2009

DeC1s1on MaK1nG

My 3rD Mth holiday going end Soon!!
so fast~~bt busy busy busy and busy for the whole holiday
it doesnt seem like a holiday i shud have
but no choice, this is the life i have in this 4Mths hol1day

tat day i sent a profile for a job which i found in asiaparttime.com
the agent is from manila..her name aliyasinthya
she is going to hire me as their model
she sponsors 60% in create my portfolio
and i'm goinb to be trained and become their model
now i have to prepare myself for my portfolio shooting
it sounds interesting..the photographer named Wish.
he has 7-8 yrs experience in photographer
i hope i can reach their expectation or do better than their expectation
if i reali start this career, i will continue it for the following life

my life become more n more exiciting and happening
i keep improve myself in different career such as freelance job,modelling,insurance, and being a good n brilliant student,a children for my parent and family
my life partner and UL sick recently, hope they can recover soon
they having their busy life as me in different prospective

UL getting busy than b4, he might not have much more time tat can spend with me
now we might only meet each other once a week..i think will meet each other twice per mth
he busy for his career,his sister website, his own learning centre, his frens...etc...
since he has so busy life, i will oso start my busy life sooner..
ytd nite, i told him about my portfolio creation..
he din disagreed but he asked bout the photographer
sorry dear, i'm not reali know about him
he is arrange by my agent from manila

when i chat with Wish, i'm jz like a kid for him..
bcz i keep ask alot of question
mayb scare be cheat again, so haha..i'm a kid for him
start from now, i have to learn how to talk as a model
i will be train about the basic pose, catwalk, stand, and everything
i hope i won disappointed aliya
and i also hope i can walk out my own modelling road
this is a another beginning in my life for me..
and i am a beginner for all this..
**good luck
Xindyan**

Sunday, August 9, 2009

阴阳天

overhead~~不错的一部戏。
和我一起欣赏这部戏的就是笨笨呆呆的eugene
一个连戏票都要司机帮他买的工程师
最糟的是那个印度司机竟然卖B的位置
由于我们俩 都长得蛮高的
所以 我们决定看到不舒服时就离开
但是 因为这部戏 太吸引人了
我们还是把他看完 才离开

太饿太饿~~ 我们去了ss2的nasilemak
我们兜了很远很多地方
还差点 到klang valley吃buffet
超搞笑的约会 可是确实很好地回忆
他还答应要带我去吃四川火锅
明天就是吃火锅的一天
好期待 辣辣辣辣~~
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虽然这边玩到很开心
可是想到那个‘他’
很生气 很不爽
哼!!!!!
我要回我的生活
我要我的一切
我的生活不会再有你
生气!!!!!!!!!
可恶~!!!!
闪〉〉〉〉
离我远远的〉〉〉
好想骂 脏话!·#¥%
可恶!!!!
不喜欢 不开心
一切都是我自找的
我不准你再踏进我的生活!!
不准你再出现在我的生活!!