Tuesday, December 30, 2008

can i have wat i wan?but i dun wan b selfish..T.T

dis few day, i was so blur..and tension..
i awes think about him and hope he can stay beside me when i nid him..

my fren dated again..she was so happinese and lucky..
hope the guy can treat her well..dun disappointed her..

selfish is a bad thing, but every1 ask me do so..
i duno how to b selfish and i dun want to be..
is bad ...sometime i feel if i m selfish mayb i will feel better.
but when i tend to be, i feel bad and dun even step out.
haih...wat can i do??can i hav wat i wan without selfish??

i wan treat everyone nice,but it doesnt mean anything..
jz wanna be a gud person in my life...dun selfish oso cant??

TO A STUPID FELLOW,i jz wan b normal fren wif u..dun think too much..
it wasnt fun, and u make me mad, i won step in anymore...
i hate wat u did to me..so i won disturb u anymore..
never have this treatment..u reali a bastard!!

Thursday, December 25, 2008

爱你 是我的心情

x'mas eve-24/12/2008..a lonely x'mas in my life..

i go back to the place that we like to go-the curve..
my classmate brought me there and we enjoy the moment..
but in my heart, i know i feel touch when i c everything that related your smile,your hugs..

we had a sweet x'mas eve and x'mas in last year..
it awes in my mind..whr r u?
izzit far away from me ??
i will bring our memory along with me..

Monday, December 22, 2008

Juz for U!

when will u back?
izzit nothing can be change anymore??
this year dongzi, i nt have it alone..
i celeb with my fren family..

i drink alot and quite drunk..
i miss u so much..
castle already cracks, i need time to repair it..
if i cant have wat i wan ,i will destroy everything i have..

i know u wont care what i did, and i oso duno wat can i do for u,
but when you feel it, can you just turn back and look at me..
myy love and heart just for 'U'...

Sunday, December 21, 2008

why everything come so fast and happen so fast!???

i done something i never think i will do!!
i duno how to explain??how to wrote down?
jz can said:" i make my life more complicated again!"

will i regret??i duno...
so wat can i do@@
waiting my mr.right??o continue my playgal life??
haha///
my fren sure kill me if i bcom playgal//
but i am adi..no choice..
i start the game ,i will continue myself..
my game, my rules...

Friday, December 19, 2008

crazzy charity nite!!

17/12 ,wed 2008

we hav a charity dinner at main campuses..
today is my classmate chin yee birthday,
so sori i cant go yamcha wif her at nitexx..
i plan to back home..
but i change my mind in last minute..

haha///
i think i might too actives in that nitez.
me ,jason and nick...three of us went to GENTING at 1030pm..
haha...we r so cold and wear thinly..
cant imaging the pic anymore..
we r shake when we walk on GENTING at 2am...

everyone misunderstand our relationship..
my life become mess again..
haha!!!
mayb dis is my life//whohooo ..enjoy!!

Thursday, December 18, 2008

everything is changing..

i just wan to find someone i can rely on him..
mayb everyone would need to meet with their another part in their life,
but it seems nt suitable me..

yesterday nite, i went to a blind charity in main campus..
me and my fren was so touch when we c our fren so much close wif their gal fren.
both of us just wana someone can love us forever and in peace..
but nt at this moment..

if i reali can have someone love, who will be the one??
i was tired with everything ,
now...i juz wan to rest..
i miss someone so much..but i dun think he will know..
everything seems go back to the beginning..
i shudnt b greedy and i muz live in wat i have ...
dun expect too get too much and jz be myself..
mayb no one in this world will love me..
but i juzt hope i won be hurt anymore..

Sunday, December 14, 2008

To "UR ANGEL"

can i knw wat is ur purpose to do all this to me??
i know u?o have i did something to u?
why u did this to me?i just wan to be in peace..
i cant know any guy gt gal fren?
but i have alot of guy fren with gf..
my guy fren(with gf) cant celeb birthday wif me?
but i have many guy fren(with gf) give me a hug and party..

if u read this, please tell me why u do so?
i knw u purposely make it happen...
joey read the comment also but nobody feel is a problem..
why u so hypersensitive wif the comment??

are u mad??crazy??

i dun wan to cont my feel in blog..

it make trouble,
ppl jz view and make trouble to me.
i jz write down wat i feel in the particular moment..
i hope u all can stop it..
it affected my life ..

wat i wrote maybe make u all misunderstanding..
but my life and daily work is make fun on ppl..
u might be one of them...^O^<3v!l>

Saturday, December 13, 2008

i'm bad gal!!

sorry to u both!!
i duno wat happen in the beginning..
but nw i knw i reali did a wrong thing.

why will become like dis?
i dun wana to hurt anyone in the world.
nw i hurting myself n two more pple.
i shudnt involve in this relationship,
i shudnt let it happen..

god!i knw why i bad luck and fail in dis few day,
dis is my cross, i nid to bear on it..
how can i change the situation ??
anyone can help me?

Friday, December 5, 2008

can i believe ur promise ??

today i decide to write down my feeling and tension here..
normally i will write in friendster..

dis few weeks, i did something that going to hurt someone else in somewhere..
i awes avoid it happen in my life, and i dun wan to do so..
but sometime, u knw u cant and shdnt do that..but u still will do so..

in my heart, i awes ask myself can i believe him?will him do the same thing in future to me??
i have no idea, and i awes remember back that day who i love said break to me...
till nw, i still duno wat happen between me n him..tats y i still will awes remember him..
sometime i wil miss him badly..but i knw i shud look forwards..and dun stop..

so nw, i wana ask "U" can i believe whatever u promise me??
i need something make me feel stable..i dun wan same thing happen twice in my life..
if u c dis, mayb u will knw wat i want from u..

F!rst time

dis is my 1st time write down my story which doesnt related with him..
and i wan to ask myself and ask for comment from people..

life for me is colourful..
bcz i have many experience and memories that make me more mature than others..
but in my life i got three things which i cant confirm and trust..

1. shud i believe human ?
2. how can i trust ?
3. can i have a very perfect relationship(forever partner)??sure??