Thursday, July 30, 2009

我需要没有一点的束搏

一点点地牵挂 让我无法思考
一点点地担心 让我喘不过气
我不适合 挂念 也不适合 在乎
我尝试 把自己带离你的生活
我尝试 不把我和你 变成我们
我以为 只要我不找你 你也不会记得我
每当我开始尝试忽略你的存在
你却会无时无刻的联系我
昨晚 我觉得好陌生
可能 我害怕 我们的关系
我们没说什么话
我感受到你的关心
我也感觉到自己的逃避
我没伤害你吧?
可能是因为 他人的问题
让我更加地想逃避
可能是害怕听见你的否认
还是害怕我们之间的关系
为什么我们会让事情发生?
这是 理所当然的吗?
我和你 是理所当然吗?
好多疑问 让我不想去理会
我的坦荡 要是伤害了你
记得用你的拥抱 告诉我
拥抱 让我会感受到你需要我
这可能就是我和你的沟通方式
有些话 不需要多说
我和你 或者是 我们
对我来说 是不同的个体
你有你的生活 我有我的生活
不干涉 对我们来说 是最好的
在你心里 又是什么感想呢?
从来不问 不代表我不在乎
而是 我不习惯 也不懂得
害怕让你感受到我的心情
害怕你和我一样
我应该给的体谅 无时无刻的包容
一样也不会少 只要你需要
想念 我可能必须接受
可是我会让我不受束搏的生活
********
风 吹着我的脸
飞翔 是我的氧气
********

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Hospital day

i have no idea to write down this post
because my body still in blur condition
i have started vomit from last midnite untill ytd nite
i went for the clinic,the doct cant get to know wat happen with me
she wrote a letter for sent me to emergency unit
when i been there, OMG!!!
i wait for 3 hrs den onli can get to c the doct
the doct was a person who dont care about cleanly..i think so..
he scratch his foot then without washing his hand..OMG~~
luckily he din touch me..if not i will vomit in front of him..
he cant gva result on my illness
i been sent to observation room for 3hrs again
my dear uncle was waiting me for more than 6 hrs outside the hospital

after me, a patient was being sent in and she was being observe also
but she being suspense "having H1N1"
i was thinking: if i'm healthy, then will i get this illness lata??
luckily i can gone back home..
but today i still feel blur and no energy..
i still got alot of medicine need to eat by after every meal..
i cant work..my parent keep asked me back home.
stop work for this few days~~
i haven consider yet..
my dear UL get fodd poisoning..i feel sorry bout him..
my dear, sorry yea~~
next time won bring u to jogoya le..
hope u recovery soon..
***hugs***
this is wat i want to do for u nw**:)**
i still haven decide whether to back hometown
if i dun back will take care of u for this few days
but i scare lata u have to take care of me
haha...nurse said my body lack of oxygen
so will easy to faint down..so to be easy for u
i knw u will prefer nt need to take care of me

alone at my uncle hs now..
i'm so boring and miss u
but u haven reply my msg
i think u reali sick and charm...
huhu~~miss u la..worry bout u oso..
take good care of urself la
i also need my uncle to take care of me
we will meet each other soonly..muakzxx

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

安全感 我需要的

最近 有点懒 有点闷 有点静
原因 出于我的懦弱 我的自私
承诺 能让我得到安全感吗?
给于地承诺 是我不敢接受现在的一切
我到底是什么事?
累了吗?突然感受到压力
我可不想脱发 也不想拥有不该出现的痕迹
压力!!压力!!

欲望 是不好的 急于功利 也是不好的
我好想 安安分分 当个学生 当个20 岁的女孩
每天开开心心 学我想学的音乐 虽然 可能没有天分
像中学的时候 每天无忧无虑的 做自己喜欢的事
没有压力 没有烦恼 没有负担 没有承诺
这些没有 随着每一天 慢慢的消失
今天还会想不开 觉得我是不是走错了
可是 我知道不该有这些想法
是因为 最近所发生的吗?
我的内心 还是的无知的小女生
会依赖 会霸道 还学不会体谅 包容
安全感 我已经忘了这是我最想要的
为什么会那么需要呢?
因为 一个人?爱上他? 还是短暂的需要?

伤害 是可以由一个人造成的
伤害自己 我在做着 可是却无法停下来
知道了 还是不能阻止
我好想坦荡荡的做我自己
****B3 My$elf****

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Life is GREAT~~

i having my great life now
doesnt come out with trouble
but today...i receive few mails and msg which get me in trouble..
****i dun wan mention the trouble****
i reali dun like it..

since i having my life and my life doesnt involve u all..
so dun come and mess up..
i dun understand who are the one so free to destroy ppl's relationship
who are u?U this b*stard~~STOP involve mE~
STOP destroy relationship~~
STOP interrupt my life anymore!!!

i dun have time to due with u~~~
if u wana play game ..show me who r u~~u this noob~~useless!!

Saturday, July 11, 2009

1st time's 4 mths holiday!!

today is 11/7/2009
happy birthday to ejae!!
sorry cant celebrate for you

this mth is 2nd mth holiday le..wat had happen and still happening leh?
i clubbed alot last mth..this mth stop club le..although hav many frenz invite me..
but i wana b a good gal!!
dun hv a good health..will take a body check this end of mth
he worry me..sorry to make u worry..i will take good care of myself

today my UL gone back to hometown..miss him la..
although i jz met him ytd nite n this morning
muakzzz..love to kiss u in every moment..
haha..like to hear from u..why?what are u thinking??
like a kid asked alot..
haha..bkful when drive..i will worry and miss u awes
muakzzz~~this is 2nd mth le..